Back to reality
Back to these cold and harsh and torturous reality.. The only flame to keep me warm and that comforts me is The One above..
I tried and i persevered. He taught me the ways, He showed me the directions, He told me He will be there.. I need to get on and stop allowing myself to wallow in self-pity. The world hates me cos i belong to Him, that is why it is out to hurt me and stop me.. I need to get over this. I really need to. You know.. I really really wish something would knock me over and I'll lose my memory.. erm just that specific one.
I dun want to lose my sanity.. Seriously.. I dunno but definitely I know there is something in my sub-conscious mind just telling me sth. sth that makes me to want to go on..
Seriously... Anyone of you who is reading this, knows what the situation is.. Can you stop thinking that I'm the one who is in control? or think that i might hurt her in the long run or what.. Cos you know what?!? Im the one right now who is really i dunno what to say......
I need to add more positive insights to this blog of mine.. cos it seems like a blog full of depression.. Its time to sleep.. I need to push further.. just feels that God is trying to make me understand a point.. But i can't catch it. probably He will tell it in my dream.
Need the healing touch.
YEAH MAN~!!!! FINALLY!!!! Got the answer already at least... Thanks ah. WOOHOO!!! wah the feeling feels just like able to release when constipating siol!!
I'll be gone for a week to taiwan... and i guess I'm just gonna use the time to just forget.. hahahaha.. Although it might seem alright now but i guess its just the start, the pain will slowly set in.. But fret not!! Because we are taught to rejoice in our sufferings!! and sufferings forces perseverance and perseverance builds character and character brings HOPE!! Oh my goodness.. This is what i call " This season, I will be stronger! "
"Bye" is my last word for you.. =)
