I've found a friend who died for me

Week 2 of sem 2.

Still going on fine but there seems to be a little slack in my work. Think i am not gonna give up, have to continue to work hard. No reason to drop.

However, so far i think this week is one of like the most fun week i have ever had since i started poly. Hanged out with K.K, shaun, Z.J from wednesday till friday. Super duper fun lo.....

There were also some disappointing confusion. I don't know whether it is my fault or what, but i am curious whether the lecturer did say that for week 1 & 2, there are no practicals for this module "IT for life sciences". Because me and naz turned up in school at 9a.m and there is no lesson and the next lecture is like 4 hours later. I could have been sleeping at home la. Anyway, i think it is also responsible of the class rep to like remind everyone that there is no practical tomorrow. It's infuriating man!! Seriously, i think a better leader with outstanding leadership skills, really is needed for this leadership role. This isn't the first time, that i have gone to school early and the lesson is like cancelled. Next sem, i am gonna step up, I cant see this going on if i am to spend the whole of my 3 years with them.

Wednesday, the 4 of us went to dhoby ghaut to get movie tix to "MJ's Movie"--"This is it" for today.It is super nice!! Anyway, after getting the tix, we went to have our dinner at mac's again, i am sick of mac already......Tried our luck with that Monopoly game. Who has "scotts road", "Tanjong rhu", "sentosa cove", "Ang mo kio", "Joo Chiat road" and the yellow one, forget what is it le. But this is not the main point, after eating mac and slacking awhile, we proceeded to wilkie edge mall opposite to have 豆花油条, so nice la.

Thursday, we had a "special guest" who came to exercise with us. And he is the fat "AH SIONG"!!! So funny with him around and his super dirty jokes.. But we went to Gombak stadium to jog, wah super funny, cannot run properly lo, the ah siong keep making me laugh. The best is when the stadium is gonna closed. Paul, K.K and me ran down the field, which we were not supposed to, then we just passed around until the end of the field. The field is like "WAHHHH........", super good quality one leh, well-maintained. How i wish everytime i play football can play on that kind of field.

Today, the 4 of us went down to cathay to watch MJ's movie. Seriously, but i am only attracted to his dance moves, its so slick and smooth. I doubt anyone can do it without his guidance. Only when someone is gone, people will start to appreciate his talents. So wierd. Then after watching the movie, we walked to city hall, cos wanted to slack at the esplanade's rooftop garden. But after that decided to go E.C.P, cos there can slack and the food there is also cheap, nice & filling. We were there discussing for this year's chalet. Then halfway, the lightning is becoming more frequent and like super near. So just to be more careful, we walked to mac AGAIN. Just right before we entered, its started to rain, if we hadn't move out i think we become 落汤鸡 already. HAHA. My chinese still got standard one=)) Actually i think thats all for today le. Bye updates next week!!.

Friday. I have decided to have updates on friday. Other days are flooded with academic stuff.

I think it has been a good start for me, for my school work. Got all the homework done by the next day when the deadline is like 2 weeks later. I really am satisfied and i hope i can go on like this not stopping anywhere. All these seems like i am boasting but i am not. HaHa. Ever since sec 1, procrastinating is always my forte and i never fail to get through with assignments being handed up late. So i want to start doing my work and get it done on time!

I think something really hard have to hit me before i learn my lesson. Seriously, this struggle have been bugging me for dunno since when. Dunno when will i be save. Why is it that, i can get out of physical struggles and other struggles so easily. But when it comes to relationships with others, i just screw everything up.

Lord, if thats what you want me to do and you will take away my pain. I will. From today onwards, i will listen to You and do what You want me to do. There has been nothing good recently but i think its just like the lion allowing its cub to go learn hunting on its own.

I have made a very interesting discovery! Deep heat sport spray is magical. Yesterday, i saw a cockroach in my kitchen but the Baygon spray is like upstairs, so i lazy climb all the way up just to get it. So i made do with another spray that i have downstairs. Which is the Deep Heat Sport Spray! I thought maybe it could kill the cockroach. It didn't really kill the cockroach but somehow or it looks like the spray tamed the cockroach. You can imagine the cockroach running around very fast but after a few spray. It can sit right infront of you and stop moving or sometimes move slowly.

Those who have been to my house or my room. Finally, i have spring clean my room today!!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!! It does feels good with things cleared at least i dun have to walk with caution. Its less dusty too =)) I threw away 3 bags of rubbish from my room. I can't believe i have so much rubbish in my room. And i found all my missing things; nail clipper, hole puncher, mechanical pencil, etc....

Actually the idea of clearing up my room to make my room more condusive for studying comes from the thought that i am starting my next semester next monday. No more fooling around. I am gonna do my best and get super duper good results, GPA 4.0? Haha. Dreaming can be nice sometimes. Nice dreams but not nasty ones. Actually i am looking forward to do lab reports for MicroB because thats one of the area i can score my best.

Oh Oh, another interesting fact, i went with tanna to UNIQLO ION yesterday. My goodness! Sale eh!! 19.90 for a t-shirt?!? Got myself a Pokemon and Pac-Man T-shirt. Super cool la. Was trying on an M size Pac-Man T-shirt, came out let tanna see. Then we were both laughing cos it looks super small on me. Asked one of the staff to help me get an L size one, then the staff look at me then want laugh dun want laugh like that. But overall, i think the staff at UNIQLO ION really is a friendly bunch.

I feel like getting 2 pairs of shoes and plus one more pair of shoes that my father want to buy for my birthday= 3 pairs. My parents still owe me one birthday feast lo, must quickly tell them if not they forget.

Nevertheless, i am still gonna thank God for bringing me into this place!

Recently i watched quite a number of movies. Everyday i watch one. Starting from monday till today, "Shinjuku Incident", "Forgetting Sarah Marshall", today "Fireproof".

I dunno whether is it God's plan but it just seem like it. I was planning to watch a movie a day. So as i was looking for new updates on skyme yesterday, I saw Fireproof on the homepage. I click it and decide to watch it today.

When i watched the movie, it really touches my heart, so deep that i cried. Literally during the whole movie. Starting probably from the 10 min mark. I find myself fit in perfectly as the male lead(Caleb) except that i am not married. What really hit me most was what the father told Caleb.

About how God has love us even though we don't deserve of his love. And sometimes even though we reject and turn away from him, he still love us and even send His son to die on the cross for us when we are still sinners. I just realised that it isn't He who didn't want to care for me which i had been doubting but yet it is that he is all around and its me who is closed up, so much so that i cant see and feel what He is trying to do for me. I think i should be utterly ashamed of myself. But i know this shouldn't be the way, I know i should stand up even stronger than before and continue to walk down this path with Him.

Another clip of the movie is when Caleb's colleague told him that he shouldn't follow his heart so closely because your heart can be deceived sometimes which in turn deceive ourselves, we should put everything, entirely into God's hands.

What i want to do now is have my life rededicated back to God, turn my life around, get back on the right track and right the wrongs of what i have done. I should be in control of my heart not the other way round. And God is in control of my life not the other way round. This is it!
Although everything is okay but i still a little ashamed to face God. Nevertheless, thank You! Thank You for loving me.

Today is one untitled post, just didn't know what to title it.

Anyway, i shall continue on. Recently, got my hair cut, its super short but i like it. Even my fringe is gone. Now i have very short hair till just above my eye brows. Look very like a small kid, or probably like my age, not chao lao anymore. Many comments from many people.

"Finally cut short already ah?! Told you so long ago to get it cut already......."

"Wow! New hairstyle? Why a sudden change?"

"Your new hairstyle looks nicer, you look less messier........."

What people told me are really funny and i think my new hairstyle really have attracted many peoples' comments. For me, i think i look better with it. Guess i'll cut this and not leave anymore long and messy hair.

Dream

I had this really terrifying dream last night. I just wished that i could get out of it quick. Many people died in that dream and i was left helpless, i wished to help but i have to save my own life.

The dream was like that(I can only remember a portion of it) -----

I was a police but am not on duty. So i was on my way back home with groceries that i bought. There wasnt much i bought though, just around 2 small plastic bags. Then there were 2 teens wearing school uniform running towards my direction. A group of uniformed and plain-clothes police were chasing after them. Instinctively, when one of the teen got close enough, i dropped the groceries i was holding and caught him, locked him then pinned him down to the ground. The other teen tripped and was caught too.

Then the next day, i went on duty. Suddenly my sector was called to a school, a tertiary school. As soon as we get there, we got to work, i couldn't remember why we were called there but it just seems like a tipped-off on a group of people on drugs. Then while we are on the raid, a few people saw us and ran. When you see people run, we chased. A few of my colleagues stayed with the drug-offenders. When we caught up with the people who ran away, i was quite late, something happened. All i saw was one of my colleague, holding on the a person who is bleeding real bad and the person is unconscious. 995 was dialled, ambulance was called in.

Beside this group of people who were just caught, we saw a group of people around 12-15 people behaving suspiciously. We then went over to check. This is the beginning of the nightmare. They were actually there to bomb the school. I remembered just before we knew that they were suicide bombers, a phone call came in and told us special divisions are being sent to the school. But its too late. Just a moment after we found out their identity, one person turn on the time. They weren't suicide bombers actually but one carried it in his arms and ran away. Others took out arms and weapons. The deaths started counting. My partner and I then ran after the person, we knew he would be running to a place crowded with people. We just kept chasing and then he reached a trapped corner. The outcome? He was shot dead, still the clock is ticking with 00:01:00 left.

Then everyone started to run for the exit, I remembered my partner and I ran out as fast as we could. My partner was too desperate or something, he just quickly jumped off the building, it wasnt quite high though, around 4 storeys. Its grass down there, so i didn't know whether he survived anot. Upon reaching the entrance, i thought there are still so many lives there, i am not gonna be irresponsible and just let them die. I turned and ran back there. When i ran back, i saw an explosion just around the corner. A person was holding to explosives and throwing it everywhere. Then i saw a toilet nearby, ran over there and thought of hiding in the toilet. What i saw is quite funny, a room that has a label "escape room". I then went in, expecting that people would be in there. There wasn't anyone around. The room is really weird, because it is transparent from the inside but the room is made of concrete.

The mad "terrorists" went on a killing spree. That is still pictured in my mind, too traumatising. A while later, a person was standing outside the room i was in. I went to the door with my gun drawn, slowly locked the door. The person then gave a puzzled look, like why the door is being auto-locked. I thought the person might probably be one of them. At that moment i look around with all the bodies around. I guessed probably i am in a dream, forced myself to wake up. After waking up, that image with all the bodies all around is still on my mind. I dunno but its very hard to get that image out of my mind.

Thats all. Continue tomorrow. Bye.

17 years and still a long way to go.

There are still things to be learnt, not one but it just lines up till the day i return home. From the recent events that have happened, I have learnt.

This one thing i have learnt, its the most important:

I have got to give,submit and surrender everything to Him. He will then take care of everything for me. If i serve Him dutily, He will definitely reward me with what i deserve.

Yesterday(10/10/2009)

The birthday party yesterday was great, though there was quite few people, i am still glad they came. Really touched man. I am sorry if i never "entertained" enough of those friends that came. Have to run both side of friends. A few more occassions and i think i will be used to it. HaHa. Think this year will be the last till my 21st birthday. Some people missed out on the fun though, like gavin, amos and xinping(Major exams participants).

Gavin,for the card, really appreciate it. It is something like a memory that woke me up. So Gayve, study well for 'A' levels. Quickly end and come join us back again for LAN at PoMo. Haha. Silas, Tanna and me, 3 of us difficult to LAN ah. Talked about playing L4D today but we still decided to go home cos 3 people not fun =((

Amos, although never come but thanks for ur presence and jokes. Haha. Also thank you for being a brother/cousin. Haha. Need people for LAN still, after 'o' can play already.=))

Xinping, thanks for the very early well wishes. Haha. I will pretend that i havent see, tonight then i will see. Abit funny ah. And dun be late for school already=) sleep early, wake up early then can study more in school. Haha. Jia you! Jia you!

Also wanna thank that bunch of sec sch friends. Really surprise ah this year, although the birthday present dropped into the sea and literally it did but still thanks haha. Love it alot! At first i saw the ball in the water, I really thought its a floating buoy lor. Thought is paul play with the buoy then dropped inside one. Anyways thanks for coming and sorry for letting you guys walk out without the shuttle bus. =X

Then my father dunno want to act funny or what but so lame.... From young he tell me dun drink alcoholic beverages but i still want to try even until now. Wanted to try tequila shots at the floating bar. My father tell me dun drink, later drunk tomorrow dun need go church already. Lols. Tequila shots have 38-40% alcohol content by the way. Scary. I guess i will not be drunk ba? Then my parents and me were watching "Shinjuku Incident", then i asked my father still got wine anot, he told me "no more already, so young want to drink for wat?" Then after that i say never mind lor. Then dunno for wat he ask me " i haven't drink finish still have half a glass, want anot?" Funny la. Dun want me drink, still ask me want to drink anot. I rejected a few times but he keep asking me to take. Luckily, my 酒量好, if not really dun need go church already.

Today(11/10/2009)

Today the service super funny. The special speaker, Lin wan xing, never fail to make people laugh with his sermon. This goes to show that our lives are worth laughing at because we make stupid mistakes. Its time to change. "Life Changes" -Claire bennet.

Thanks for the "surprise" today too. HaHa. I was surprised at Joel bringing cake out to prepare for the supposed surprise. Haha. Still thank you guys for your effort. Then when we were eating cake, Joel wanted to play with cake huh? He got it first by me! He tried to smear cream on my face, but when he wanted to eat the cake he was holding, i pushed the cake into his face! hahahahha. T.S got that from me too!! Then later got scolded by pastor Lim for making a mess=(

Thats all for the update. Countdown to full 17 years.....

I think skyme.com like quite lag lo this few times. Monday, Heroes was aired at 2200hrs in US which is on a tuesday, 0400hrs(GMT+8:00H) but it is only uploaded onto the web on thursday, 0100hrs. I tried pipi, but i dun have the software, tried to download it but dunno somehow my lappie dun like the player because it always lagged out when i try to download it.....

So now i am waiting for it to stream till 100%, then watch it! Gonna plug it into TV and watch a HD Heroes, "Acceptance", but with a lappie standard of sound system T.T

Recently, i was listening to this song, 你最近还好吗 by S.H.E, its nice and then suddenly another noisy sound track popped up from out of nowhere. I think its really quite disturbing sometimes. I think the only way next time is to just listen like through MP3? So nothing can disturb. No pop-ups, nothing!

Ever played head-or-tails? Its a 50-50 chance to hit the right one. But have you ever wish that the coin was the same on both side. It will then make it 100%. I have wish for that to happened before. I know its naive of me to think that way. Unless, you have tricks to make it always appear the side you wanted.

How i wish i could have matt parkmen's power. Of course i wun put thoughts into other people's mind but i just want to know what people are thinking. It would be so much better. And daphne is just a stand-in for Janice. If Matt Parkmen could be with Mrs Janice Parkmen forever, wouldn't it be nice?

I am not sure whether i have got it all wrong this time. I really hope not and i really hope that everything would be put right. Saw these toy cars that my niece were playing, they were mine, one of my first toy cars. Then I had this wierd feeling of wanting to get the toy cars back because i had been playing with it when i was younger and they are my first toy cars. I would still feel as assured as a toddler when they have their first toy. They never want to change it or get it replaced because it holds memories. So if i have the chance i would want to keep those toy cars, unless the toy cars dun give me a chance to keep it.

Questions are always made to be answered. Some were left unanswered, we all have thought of questions out of our inquisitivity. Why? Its because we want answers. Sometimes, the questions have to be answered to prevent any misconcept, misunderstanding or sometimes mistaken identity.

Okay its time to stop and sleep. My stomach is having gastric. Painnn......... i either eat something or sleep. Sleep is better since its so late...

Bye!=))

The day started out quite good, going to church. Afterwards, only my good friend accompanied me. He is called boredom. Quite a good friend though. Only accompany me whenever there is no friends around, yea he is quite shy, doesn't like to make friends. So can say i am his best friend.

I was a little bit guilty when i left boredom alone just now to go to sleep because i was really tired and the weather is soooooo nice!! But after i wake up, he was still there, waiting for me. Even right now, he is still beside me. Just that i cant see him.

Today, i tried a new game on facebook, restaurant city, quite a cute game. It was like quite confusing at first, then try to understand the game, then start playing.

I have a request from those reading my blog, whoever you are, if you are free, ask me out okay? haha. Left 2 more weeks of holidays!! It is still so boring, so can you ask me out? thanks ah. Staying at home really can rot. Later police come to my house to claim a rotting body.

Hope i can get my pay soon. I want to buy many many many things!!!

Oh and Happy Birthday to my fellow october baby, Silas!!!