I dunno what to say... It's painful. Every single bit. Cried countless of time. Loving someone is really like taking a risk to play bare-footed soccer. There will be times where there are fun or anything. But what comes after that is the risk of blisters developing at ur sole. If you are lucky, no blisters will appear. If you arent lucky, blisters will form and cause u pain and discomfort.
Recently, or if i say that for the past few weeks. Almost every single thing, and really almost every single thing that i have come in contact with, is really something that God is trying to show me. Even the TV show that i watched.... the song 曙光 sang by sharon au. Its really stunning.. the lyrics are really speaking to me somehow.
Loving somebody really takes alot of effort. And its really painful, i dunno what else to say. Its been ongoing for almost 2 years. The same feeling that is. Really sick and tired of crying. This tough times that i have and will face, i guess will be coming to an end soon.
Once again, He showed me that the love He has always been giving to me. I try and gave my best for the one that i love. Did all i could to protect, to bring happiness and joy to her. God told me He had been doing that all along by all the things He have shown me thru the past few weeks to make me feel better. I really think I am a hypocrite, I always promised God that i will not only find Him when i dun feel good. But i do just that. God is gracious i know it, He is gonna give me another chance i know it. Please Lord... Thank you.
