Its really taking a toll on me.. Can hardly focus when studying. Why must it be bugging me like a parasite? Really had enough. I might just fall into depression one day. I really dun want this kind of test anymore. Lord you know I am bad at dealing this kind of matters, yet constantly You allowed this to happen to me.
Why can't i just treat her like a sister? Nothing can be done with fullest concentration. Even when playing football. I even lose the ball to an easy opponent. I really dunno what else i can do.
Lord, can You just tell me why I can't have her, when it is really a distraction to me right now. Won't it be better? I mean like wouldn't the situation be so much better? You said let those who are distress come to you and they will receive the peace that they need. I really dunno now. You know me even better than myself. Emotions are the biggest threats. I have absolutely no guard against it. Everytime I asked for Your help, You didn't answer, You left me there to fend for myself.
