Gone
Seriously, its gone. I'm at a loss already. This game do not allow a draw, either a victory or a lost. It just seems like i am always destined for the latter. Should i continue? Don't think its a choice. I know i can't continue but searching elsewhere is no use either, it still comes back to the square one.
Its the broken that needs healing.
I never thought that i would be so weak but just a word or any forms of expression from that person would really throw me into that pit, where its all dark and scary. Thinking that this would definitely not be of a problem i will stand firm, but it just takes a gust of wind to make me fall, really hard. Had to convince myself that all these were not done by.., told myself it would be better, just ran a marathon my heart just isn't feeling well, perhaps my perspiration is much more active at the corner of my eyes. Its nothing actually. All is fine.
How i wish i could be heitian-ed and not remember anything about this. But i know this is not gonna happen and it is not gonna end here. If there really is a santa claus around, the present i want to ask for, will be you. Its burning still.
God i need your help, need your healing touch. I am sorry... Please help me.
