Released!
Woah!! I think today is the best day of my life! God just works wonders. Thats what i can tell you readers.((=
I thought that God has already seen enough, and wanted me to be saved from this emotional battle because one more step and i might see myself diving right down from the cliff.
But it isn't. Had a good talk just now with God, in the toilet at raffles city. Although i was doing some uncomfortable business but still God didn't fail to come to talk to me though i hadn't been eating vegetable lately and had quite a trouble trying to force it out. Nevertheless, i cast away all the uneasiness and just start my business with God.
This is my toilet story[viewer discretion advised(it might be uncomfortable)]: Tanna and I was walking aimlessly, then suddenly tanna got the feel to want to do business. So i can't possibly wait for him right, no place to sit also. Then i decided to do business also, since so boring. So just do lor, but i half sian liao cos the only cubicle left is the squat one. Super crap. Sometimes, toilet may fail man. Still i went in, had a great time worshipping God. He told me lots of things and i released everything i hold to him also. The scenario is like: I constipate very long, then finally found the strength to push everything out. Then its like finally, felt so relieved. So just flush away all the burdens, as if a new beginning is awaiting because the water seems so clear.
God has just the answer that i had been waiting for a long time and I realised that it is not Him who want to see me stop suffering but is because i finally learn what he want me to learn.
It's a new beginning.
The next thing i am battling with is my pride. Always, i tell myself, why are people so prideful? Can it bring them anywhere? Now i am asking myself this question. I believe God is gonna take care of this and He is gonna protect me like how he did.
Byebye. God is with me all the time. "Your Grace is all that i rely on"
