Exhausted...toasted...dead.....
Everything that i tried to do for myself just seems like self-delusion. I can't take it anymore.
The feeling is just like spraying the instant pain reliever( deep heat sport spray ) that relieves the pain if you sprain your ankle. And it relieves it almost instantly, leaving a cool feeling behind. Then when the effect wears off, only then will you realise how painful it is. As if its tearing someone apart.
I thought that probably for me now, the so called "pain relieve" i had earlier on is gone. Now is the time where the real pain comes, the pain slowly moves through my body and slowly its just too pain. Just feel like i need to be warded into ICU right now.
Think i am just gonna totally leave that place. I am really sorry if i have to disappoint anyone. I am sorry. But i just can't take it anymore.
And i just feel that being a 21-year-old, sometimes can really have no brains or any sense at all.Haiz....
Sorry Lord for the things i've made it when its all about you.
